you know what?!

i've woken up afresh and clearminded.
i guess i overreacted much cause i've never really been asked like that
and it's just really weird and sudden la you know?
but i'm not going to let it stop me anymore la,
if i continue like that i'll never get a boyfriend.

he's a really really nice guy and everything,
but he's not boyfriend type la.
i know jho will say:' u never try before, you don't know!'
but like you just KNOW some people
u cannot have a relationship with la you know?

plus i think i like someone else edi.

but anyway, i'm thinking..
i'm just gonna go la hor.
whatever la, it might be fun.
i'm just gonna treat it as a movie with friend.
and im debating whether to tell him that
i'll go out but not date-date you know??

but writing it out just confirms it more,
that i'm just gonna forget it and go.
no expectations, no worries whatever.

cause maybe in his mind it's sth different.
so whoooosh (that's my thoughts all out).

i'm just gonna go and see what happens.
hopefully nothing awkward cause it would really be weird
cause he's in my class for next 5 years
and also in small group la, CU la everything.

i'm gonna try to forget my 'fear of intimacy' thing.

just keep encouraging me please guys!